The Feeling of Transience

I'm already feeling like it's time for me to be moving on again. I can't peg why. Part of me mourns for that fact, the other part is resigned to it in a comforting kind of way, as it's my birthright, my life. It's difficult to begin that lifestyle without some way to facilitate it.

I don't want to job hop - rather I'd have a job that lets me do a lot of travel. I want to become a consumate traveler, addicted to the wind, but not alone. I suppose that's what sucks the most about this point in my life. It's not the desperation of love, but a strong desire for companionship. I suppose that's why I'm so looking forward to beginning a music career and/and finally get my books rolling so I can 1) go on book tours and 2) have the income to travel and write as I want. To get up and move to anywhere and be able to still work as I please as my only job will be to write a book, which I can do from anywhere, and can do better elsewhere.

What a life I want to lead! I pray to God he'll bless me with such. To up and move to Rome because one of my characters is in Rome so I can smell the air, eat the food, look at the wine (I don't drink, but they might LOL) and walk the city streets. Just the joy of such freedom as I'll have. I don't need a big house, just a small one I can visit often. I like cozy, I like warm and inviting.

I like the old Victorian-style homes, but I think I value the timelessness of such architecture rather than the architecture itself. I'm a timeless kind of person. I like things that you could do today and will still be good tomorrow. Writing a novel is more permanent than writing a newspaper. Singing a song that could be on the lips of someone tomorrow is better than a song people only like to remember.

I'm not a faddist, I don't like the newest haircuts or newest fashions. They come and go, just like excitement and pain. I like something warm that lasts.

Maybe I'm tired of sitting at a desk all day, but there're are few 'outside' jobs I want. I enjoy the outdoors, but there aren't many professional jobs my skills fall under that require working outside.

I should probably just put it to prayer, as all things, and trust in the Man Upstairs.

As always.

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